Hazy and Blurred

When I was a little girl, I remember singing and preaching to my baby dolls. I remember I would line them all up, and I would pretend we were at church and that I was the worship leader singing and praising God. I would also read out of the Bible and pretend to be a teacher of the Word.

I remember like it was yesterday this one time, In particular when I was reading from a passage of scripture from the book of Corinthians 13:12, Which reads, "In the same way, we can see and understand only a little about God now, as if we were peering at His reflection in a poor mirror; but someday we are going to see Him in His completeness, face to face. 

Now, all that I know is hazy and blurred, but then I will see everything clearly, just as clearly as God sees into my heart right now.

I remember when I was done reading it, shouting, "Praise God, Hallelujah!" And clapping and pretending as though the whole church was clapping too. Have you ever had a memory so clear in your mind and wondered why I remember this so clearly and not other things? I believe that some of those times, it's because we were supposed to remember. I believe it's to teach us something or to reveal something to us about God or about our life. 

Over the years, something would trigger that memory, and I would smile thinking about it, and then it would leave my mind as quickly as it came in.

Singing for me may have started in front of my baby dolls, but God since then has opened countless doors for me to Sing and Minister His Goodness and faithfulness in my life over the years, even leading worship. 

One evening after an event I was singing at had finished, a man who moved in the prophetic came over to me and spoke a prophetic word over my life. He said a few things to me, but one thing stood out to me, he said that not only was God going to be opening more doors for me to sing but that I would be teaching. He said you have something to say, and God is going to use you to sing and teach.. I remember thinking, teach?? I don't think so, but ok… 

But one day, when I came back from My training in Texas. I was thinking about how as a Marriage Mediator, I will be doing a lot of teaching and training to couples on how to have a great Marriage, all from God's Word. Wow, At that moment, It hit me as God highlighted that memory once again that I had as a child of me singing and teaching! I got choked up thinking, God, you're so amazing how you do things!

Maybe that memory came to me so many times to let me see a glimpse of what He was preparing for me. Who knows? But one thing I do know is that God is faithful and will finish what He has started. My life is proof of that today! 

Like the scripture in Corinthians 13:12 says, now all I know is hazy and a blur; but then I will see clearly! The plans that God had for me many years ago may have been a blur to me then, but God knew and was preparing me for such a time as this. 

Every day we are learning and growing from Glory to glory. Every day God is working behind the scenes. We may not see it or believe it or understand it. But He is! I know that God is still working and preparing me for so much more than even what I see today! 

Don't ever let anyone tell you that what God has put in your heart is impossible.

Don't ever think that your dream for a better marriage is impossible; you may not see it clearly now or know how it could happen, But God knows, and Nothing is impossible with God! Now that is something to shout about! "Praise God, hallelujah! "

Author: Colleen Cox